Maybe I am a fool to think she’s the one… Maybe I’m a fool to keep her in my life regardless of her lack of “emotional connection” with me… Maybe I’m a fool to think that things will work out for us in the end… who knows..? But one thing is for sure… I do feel like a fool in love. I want to live the moment with her. I want to travel the world with her… would follow her in the GRAND NORD if I had to… or would take her with me to Europe… I would shun away and live on a deserted island if that were the case…! Unfortunately, we have a social standing to conform to and standards to uphold. I wish I were the women she needed in her life… I wish I inspired her to be the women she wishes to be. I only end up fucking everything up every single time. But the truth is that I love her… regardless of her “lack of connection” to me, emotionally speaking. It is what it is…
So this being said, we had a nice supper together, got into an intense discussion, then I followed her into her car because I didn’t want to let her go home… and we made out until she kicked me out of her car. Interesting evening indeed…
There are some truths that are undeniable: the earth is round and the sky is blue. As for love and relationships… they are a total mystery to me…!!!
Ally L.