1. the act or process of transmuting. (sorry doesn’t help!!!)
2. the fact or state of being transmuted. (too thick to understand this one too!!!)
3. change into another nature, substance, form, or condition. (ah! now i get it!!! thank God – with a big G)*
so what is it all about? what is it that I wish to transmute (can’t believe it’s a real word! sounds like a word in the same category as suburbanite!!! not my favourite words!)? sooo… transmutation… how about sexual transmutation?
okay, now that i’ve got your attention, bare with me (and mom this entry is about sex so just beware)!!!! i’m thinking that some of you will relate, if not, well… i’m a lesbian in desperate need of a straight jacket (or something the sorts!)!
we all have sexual peaks and let’s just say… mine has been awoken radically in the past weeks. i find myself thinking about it, fantasising about it, dreaming about it and well… doing it (alone and not so alone when the situation presents itself…). i would do it on the dining table, on the washing machine, leaning against the a wall or a door… you know, horny style (mom I warned you!). and well, the more you have it, the more you want it. does that mean that the less you have it the less you want it??? ça reste à prouver mais bon! i then realised i can’t seem to focus on anything else and, like it or not, it is not making my life very productive these days. doing it with someone is… awesome and it makes me crave for it even more (since it’s so hot – hint hint). having a discussion with this someone in particular and due to dire circumstances (sex + feelings = downfall or as she says “note to self: l’amour ça fuck toute la patente!”) yeah, yeah, yeah. the idea of channelling sexual energy came up… therefore sexual transmutation… right… *capital SIGH*. i was thinking i would have to repress my desire for her but she was thinking using this sexual energy for a greater good… the world will be a better place because of it! sounds so wise… and so mature. actually quite refreshing coming from another lesbian but still *sigh*. so, following the aftershock of realising we wouldn’t be doing more often (*SIGH* - i know i’m sighing a lot – it is what it is!), i figured i might as well walk the path of wisdom (boring… but it just might lead me somewhere after all). hence the so creative and scandalous entry about sexual transmutation!!!! aren’t i being creative already!!!! so, in a genuine attempt to channel my sexual energy, i will concentrate on ally’s wonderland. maybe you’ll be able to tell me if i’m “transmuting” often enough and creatively enough… *sigh* ;) major challenge indeed!
sexual transmutation, here i cum… oops come!
Ally L.
*http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/transmutation